Month: April 2017

Emotional Healing ~~ Only a PipeDream

On By dancingpalmtreesIn Buddha, Buddhism, Buddhist, Camera, Christian, Christianity, Fuji Film Camera, Heal, Healing, Jesus, Jesus Christ, King James Version Bible, Photographs, Photography, Uncategorized13 Comments

 

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Your body can heal from bruises, bumps, cuts and breaks but your mind can never heal from emotional, physical or psychological abuse.

I am a rape survivor. I was raped when I was 19 but the abuse did not stop there. Throughout most of my adult life I have been the object of sexual harassment, domestic violence, bullying, workplace violence etc…  For a long time I tried to cover up my wounds by going to church, reading my Bible, prayer, exercise, having productive hobbies such as photography, practicing Buddhist meditation, getting out into Nature, affirmations, playing Gospel, Inspirational and uplifting music, read books that are supposed to show you how you can get deliver from your thoughts, listening to progressive positive videos and podcasts, and so on. You name it I’ve tried it or am still using these strategies.

During the last 40 odd years I’ve been hospitalized repeatedly for Depression. I’ve been on all types of anti-depressants and psychosis drugs/pills to no avail. I spent two weeks on the psych ward as a prisoner at Kings County Hospital in Brooklyn, NY. One of the worst hospitals in New York.  I was forced to take medication that caused panic attacks, breaks with reality, hallucinations and everything else these drugs are supposed to fix. I saw things there that scared the hell out of me and frightened me so badly that I promised myself I would never return to the hell hole again.  Just thinking about that place causes nightmares.

Believe me when I say that the cure is worse than the disease.

After being released from Dante’s Inferno I began to realize that I will never escape the effects of the trauma. I will always have flashbacks, nightmares, triggers, night terrors and fears that nobody except those who’ve gone through my experience can understand. I know I will never have a loving, caring relationship with a man because too much water has passed under the bridge and I rarely trust men. My history and my experiences are my reality no matter how many times I read or watch that book/movie called The Secret.

I still do all the things I stated in the early paragraph but now as I approach my sixth decade on this earth I realize that I cannot run away from me. I was looking for a fix or a cure that does not exist. I must accept my failures, flaws, and shortcomings because no matter what I do inside my mind I will remain the same.

However all is not lost as I know when I pass from Labor to Reward I will receive my healing in Heaven and my suffering will come to an end.  Finally I will find peace.

One thing that I will do when I see Jesus is ask him why I had to go through all this pain and what I did to cause it.  Was there something wrong with me. That is something for which I really want an answer.

So that is my response to today’s word prompt despite the fact that I know folks won’t like my words and will say that my feelings and emotions are not true or valid but deep inside I know that my truth is my reality no matter how much I try to change it. You can’t run from yourself.

 

Energy Boost Vitamins for Healthy Lifestyle

On By dancingpalmtreesIn Afro4T, B Vitamins, Klymaxx, Mineral Rich by Maximum Living, Moringa Bitters, Moringa seeds from Ghana, Probiotics, Uncategorized, Vitamin E-Oil, Vitamin Infusion, Vitamins, Yogurt6 Comments

 

 

2017 Vitamins for Health Journey Update!!!!

If you think it costs money to be well or to stay healthy believe me it costs more in terms of money, time and lifestyle being sick!!

MENOPAUSE!!!

 

No not that one!! Don’t I wish the Men or at least the handsome good looking wealthy ones would pause my way!! Where are you my African King?!  In my dreams!  LOL!!  8-Track Flashback!! 🙂   😀

Menopause does a number on your hair. Once your estrogen production goes down your skin becomes drier and in many cases for Women your hair thins out or comes out. The Hot Flashes and Night Sweats are pure hell but I’ll leave those for another blog.

Ladies we do not want this. I don’t know about you but the bald look does not look good on me. Our Hair is our Crowning Glory and we need to take care of our precious strands.

MINERAL RICH ~~ MAXIMUM LIVING

Received my bottle of Mineral Rich made by the company Maximum Living!!  Mineral Rich is marketed as a Vitamin Supplement/Energy Drink. It is a dietary supplement. I have taken pill vitamins in the past but pills are not my friends. They are often horse pills meaning that they are large and difficult to swallow. Regular pill vitamins also feel like they are getting stuck in my throat which is extremely uncomfortable. I prefer to drink my Vitamins.

I found out about Mineral Rich from the below Naturalista YouTuber. Hopefully my hair will also grow faster and longer which would be a great addition to also getting more energy.  I will give this product until end of June/early July then I will give you a hair growth update. My goal is not waist length hair but healthy hair, scalp and skin.  When I had my hair in Locs it was down my back to my waist and I could sit on my hair.

Keep in mind that for any health regime to work you must be consistent!!  You can’t get fed up and stop after one month telling yourself and others, “This is not working”. You are in your specially selected program for the long haul.  

For me even if I can’t get to my Reviv Vitamin clinic for my B 12 shots due to extreme weather I know that I must have alternatives and combos I can rely on.

 

Mineral Rich
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Continuing the Health Goals and Plans from 2016 into 2017

I am still continuing my Vitamin B injections from the Reviv Clinic:   http://revivme.com/

However living in New York City where weather is one day sunny and the next day snowing it is not always possible to get to the store to buy vitamins or supplements so I Thank the Good Lord for Amazon.com where I can order vitamins online for postal delivery.

Taking more control of my physical health. In order to get better and be better I’ve got to do better. Complaining does not help. Whining is useless. Action is needed. Thus I’m going on a Vitamin regime. I think that some of my tiredness and exhaustion may come from not getting enough vitamins.  I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired!!  Tired of cancelling fun times, parties and events with friends because of being exhausted!!  I’m only in my 50s and I don’t want to feel like I’m in my 70s or 80s!!

No Excuses!! Ladies, Put on Your Big Girl Panties and Rock it!!

I’m been shoring up my finances with as much overtime as humanly possible and I’m going to treat myself to a type of Vitamin Spa. One of the many great things about New York City is that everything is available to keep you healthy and strong. All types of options. Some are not covered by insurance. Some are a bit expensive but with careful saving one can make use of the many holistic options New York City offers.

I think an extra dose of B Vitamins, my Ensure drinks, and Moringa Bitters I expect to see some changes by the end of October start of November.  Moringa Bitters are sold in many Caribbean and African owned stores in New York. Yes it does taste bitter but so did the Cod Liver Oil my Dad used to make us take when we were kids!!  LOL!!
I also eat lots of Yogurt with Probiotics. Mostly for my stomach and to ease my digestion but I’ve noticed a side benefit of eating Yogurt with Probiotics at least twice a day is increased hair growth.

DRINK LOTS OF WATER!!

Investing in myself for a Better Me!!

Nap Chat Videos.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Both Ladies featured in the Natural Hair Videos are of Nigerian Heritage.  I’ve always felt a deep kinship to Nigeria and her people. I also have a great Love for the people especially the Ladies from Ghana. More than likely I have ancestral ties to both these great lands and that’s why Nigeria, Ghana and Egypt resonate within my soul and spirit. In so many ways Africa is not just my ancestral home but also my spiritual home. The Motherland.