Robbing Peter to pay Paul
The New Paradigm
I finally managed to get a new cell phone from another provider. I still owe T-Mobile but I just add them to the list of unpaid bills. Eventually I hope to get that situation figured out.
In the meantime I will be working six days a week to try to pay off my bills. This means I will not have time to pursue much writing. I have a few poems on deck for the end of September but writing will no longer be my priority. From now on it’s Survival Mode. In order to stay afloat I must sacrifice Family and Me time. I cannot eat or pay rent with my dreams, goals or desires.
In order to stay somewhat stable I need to come up with $1500 every two weeks. That means I need to be on my Grind 24/7/365. My job already requires me to work Holidays so that will be extra income. Labor Day, Columbus Day, Veteran’s Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years Day I will be at work. No more vacations for the rest of the year.
Like the Rap ~~ Hip/Hop song says, “It’s All about the Benjamins’ Baby!”
I Apologize in advance for my slowness in replying to comments. In shifting my focus more towards my job it will take me days perhaps weeks to Reply so Please Don’t be Offended.
It’s All About The Benjamins Baby!!
Well folks my health and financial problems have finally caught up with me. Despite all the affirmations and positive thinking today my cell phone got cut off. I let the Director of Stephen’s program know that they will have no way to contact me possibly for weeks or months. I also let his Group Home Residence know that they will not be able to get in touch with me for a while. I’m sure that they will do a good job of caring for him until I can get myself together.
Lesson learned is that no matter how many good positive thoughts you think, no matter how many affirmations you make reality cuts in. I’m now forced to admit that my situation is beyond my control and there is nothing I can do to make it better.
I will still try to submit some blog posts but I can no longer do what I was doing before. Plus I will not be able to catch up or read your blog posts as frequently. That includes responding to comments.
Given my dire circumstances I guess this is an enforced blogging break. Anyway I just wanted to Thank everyone for their encouragement and support.
Maybe next year 2018 will be a better year. In the meantime Life goes on.
Last night no sleep. I’ve had chronic insomnia for years. Finally around four or five this morning I slept briefly dreaming of my long deceased parents.
Whenever I am under extreme stress and physically ill I dream about Mom and Dad.
Their presence gives me comfort while I endure long term stress and sickness. Listening to the Bible helps because even though this world is filled with suffering the next world will be Paradise. I will be reunited with my loved ones and no more money worries or physical pain.
As the Bible says my treasure is in Heaven. Paradise is my true love.