Share Your World – September 18, 2017


 

 

Share Your World – September 18, 2017

Share Your World – September 18, 2017

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Complete this sentence: I want to learn more about …

Photography

On a vacation what you would require in any place that you sleep?

A Clean Queen Size bed that is firm for my bad back. Pillows. Lots of them. The reason I added the word clean is that you’d be surprised at how many hotels/motels do not wash or change the sheets and comforters after guests leave!

What is your greatest extravagance?

Not a whole lot as I live paycheck to paycheck but getting a pedicure which is needed since my job requires standing and walking. My feet hurt after a long day at work. I would add my Vitamin treatments which I can’t really afford anymore. Those Vitamin infusions really helped me and I wish I had the money to invest in myself. A badly needed physical however the co-pay has gone up beyond my resources. Unfortunately Self-care has become an extravagance which I can barely afford so I tend to neglect my well-being. I’ve learned to ignore pain, push through it and keep it moving.

Spending more time with my brother Stephen. If I had my ‘Druthers’ as the comic Lil Abner used to say I’d spend more time with Stephen. It is not fun having to work weekends and holidays and I feel guilty for all the holidays I’ve missed spending with Stephen. That’s one reason I don’t look forward to those year end holidays because I know I’ll be at work. In the last nine years maybe I’ve spent perhaps 1 at the most 2 Christmas with Stephen. I’m not big on Christmas but it does mean something to him so I wish that I could be with Stephen on those “Family Holidays.”  Maybe once I turned 62 and my life turns around those future dreams might come true. However those dreams are years away so I deal with the here and now.  I am grateful and Thankful to have a job but you give up all your family and Me time just to survive and make ends meet.

Would you want $200,000 right now or $250,000 in a year? It’s safe to assume all money is tax free.

$200,000 right now! As we all know Tomorrow is not promised to you. I might not be alive a year from now so I want all my money Now! I really need that money for my healthcare which has gone by the wayside. Plus think of all the fun stuff and good times that Stephen and I could have if I had $200,000!!

Is it more important to love or be loved?

Both

List things that represent abundance to you.

Health. Once you start to lose your health you begin to lose everything.  Truly I wish I had my 20 year old body but with my 58 year old mature mind. I miss out on so many events because of chronic pain, stomach issues, and all the other health challenges that come with aging. I’d give almost anything to go back to the healthy functioning body I had as a young woman.

Spending time with my brother Stephen.

What inspired you this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination. 

Lord Rescue Your Child once again to a State of Grace.

Jeremiah 29:11

New International Version (NIV)

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 

 

 

 

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Furniture, Tables, Chairs, Sofa, etc.


 

 

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Furniture, Tables, Chairs, Sofa, etc.

Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge: Furniture, Tables, Chairs, Sofa, etc.

Cee's Fun Foto Challenge

 

 

 

 

Gaia Reclaiming Her Land


 

Land formerly wood, concrete and metal of long forgotten torn down buildings must give way to Queen Gaia as she Reclaims Land abandoned whilst She Festooning it with wild Beauty.

No. Not weeds to Her. But cordial Flora, Plants, bushes, sapling trees, flowers finding a home plus phenomenal growth where no man can pass allowing birds and small animals sanctuary during spring into summer.

Dancing happily flowing with gentle breezes. Tonight the woodland Nymphs shall dance with abandon around and through dusky moss green covers.

All Photos taken along Fulton Street in Brooklyn, NY.

 

Painter Barkley L. Hendricks Dies at 72


https://hyperallergic.com/373045/painter-barkley-l-hendricks-dies-at-72/?utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Painter%20Barkley%20L%20Hendricks%20Dies%20at%2072&utm_content=Painter%20Barkley%20L%20Hendricks%20Dies%20at%2072+CID_1b93ad54592e7bfbde802ea51e77e67a&utm_source=HyperallergicNewsletter&utm_term=Painter%20Barkley%20L%20Hendricks%20Dies%20at%2072

Emotional Healing ~~ Only a PipeDream


 

https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/heal/#like-253021

Your body can heal from bruises, bumps, cuts and breaks but your mind can never heal from emotional, physical or psychological abuse.

I am a rape survivor. I was raped when I was 19 but the abuse did not stop there. Throughout most of my adult life I have been the object of sexual harassment, domestic violence, bullying, workplace violence etc…  For a long time I tried to cover up my wounds by going to church, reading my Bible, prayer, exercise, having productive hobbies such as photography, practicing Buddhist meditation, getting out into Nature, affirmations, playing Gospel, Inspirational and uplifting music, read books that are supposed to show you how you can get deliver from your thoughts, listening to progressive positive videos and podcasts, and so on. You name it I’ve tried it or am still using these strategies.

During the last 40 odd years I’ve been hospitalized repeatedly for Depression. I’ve been on all types of anti-depressants and psychosis drugs/pills to no avail. I spent two weeks on the psych ward as a prisoner at Kings County Hospital in Brooklyn, NY. One of the worst hospitals in New York.  I was forced to take medication that caused panic attacks, breaks with reality, hallucinations and everything else these drugs are supposed to fix. I saw things there that scared the hell out of me and frightened me so badly that I promised myself I would never return to the hell hole again.  Just thinking about that place causes nightmares.

Believe me when I say that the cure is worse than the disease.

After being released from Dante’s Inferno I began to realize that I will never escape the effects of the trauma. I will always have flashbacks, nightmares, triggers, night terrors and fears that nobody except those who’ve gone through my experience can understand. I know I will never have a loving, caring relationship with a man because too much water has passed under the bridge and I rarely trust men. My history and my experiences are my reality no matter how many times I read or watch that book/movie called The Secret.

I still do all the things I stated in the early paragraph but now as I approach my sixth decade on this earth I realize that I cannot run away from me. I was looking for a fix or a cure that does not exist. I must accept my failures, flaws, and shortcomings because no matter what I do inside my mind I will remain the same.

However all is not lost as I know when I pass from Labor to Reward I will receive my healing in Heaven and my suffering will come to an end.  Finally I will find peace.

One thing that I will do when I see Jesus is ask him why I had to go through all this pain and what I did to cause it.  Was there something wrong with me. That is something for which I really want an answer.

So that is my response to today’s word prompt despite the fact that I know folks won’t like my words and will say that my feelings and emotions are not true or valid but deep inside I know that my truth is my reality no matter how much I try to change it. You can’t run from yourself.