Expired


 

Mable Elizabeth Palmer

Mable Elizabeth Palmer ~~ May 2, 1930 to August 2, 1998

 

Expired

 

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She transitioned Late Night Early Dew Dawn after a Night of Prayer. The call you fear but you know that it’s on it’s way. She Expired. Not died. Not Passed Away. Not deceased.  Expired.

 

Outside I’m calm as a sheet of hidden ice on a dark street corner. Inside I’m Screaming.  Yelling, What do you mean She expired? What is She? A carton of sour milk? Or stale bread? Rancid fruits cast from the Vine long time laid on ground. Ignored by Gleaners and Harvesters? 

Isn’t there a better term to express this wrecked freight train of cancer that was a head on collision hurtling my Mom to another Realm? One that I cannot reach in my current corporeal form? Cancer that eats your bones and destroys your flesh with Gatling tommy gun accuracy.

Memories of Childhood came rushing back piling up one up another.


“Help me. Help Me. Help he said Before the Hunter Shoots Me Dead. Come little Rabbit Come inside. Safely will abide.”

 


 

When My Soul Flies Away in the Morning Then I Shall Be at Rest….

When one Expires does this mean you finally get to Exhale?

 

Exhale from pain.  Exhale from sorrow. Exhale from a web of tubes and needles threading through arteries and veins. No more Beep….Beep….Whoosh. Only a Flat Line on a Lazy screen. The Last Vestiges of soul escape quickly fleeing a broken body. Release from bonds and chains. Unshackled.

 

Bittersweet. She’s away from pain but also away from me.

 

Her Spirit hearing the Clarion Call of Salvation rushed towards Heaven in a gust of wind……

 

One Last Ride past Home.

 

Redemption

 

Bursting Through Soil and Sand.

 

Resurrection

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Solo Walking


Solo Walking


Some have inquired as to whether my brother Stephen and I do Steps together. The answer to that question is No other than the 5K Walk we did on March 30th.

Stephen and I do not Live together. I Live in Brooklyn and Stephens residence is in a part of Queens only accessible by car. No subway trains or buses therefore I rarely see Stephen in person.

After my ocular occlusion and resulting retina issues I gave up driving over ten years ago. Nor do I have anyone willing or able to drive me to and from where Stephen resides. Plus now I have cataracts. Most of my caregiving is done by phone, texting or emailing. The residence decides as far as dropping him off to Brooklyn and picking him up. No we don’t get together on most Holidays either.

Many of my Followers and Subscribers have family members with Autism but I notice that they are married therefore having a built in Support System. As much as I would Love to spend more time with my brother Stephen currently I must settle for the few days a year that we are able to get together.

None of this is a complaint just stating facts. Please don’t ask me about my eyesight as I’m not giving out any extra information. This Blog is not a pity party.

Hopefully now more People will understand what it is to be a Solo Caregiver and a Solo Walker in life.